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So blessed, I can't contain it...
So much, I've got to give it away,
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Lord, You're more than enough for me
Title: end of clinicals! thank you God for your Grace.
Date: Saturday, November 21, 2009
clinicals have officially ended. the past few weeks have been really really busy with the weekdays swarmed with work and by the time im home im rrly just drained but there's still reading up to do. and weekends r occupied with trgs plus spending time with my dearest if he gets to book out. and not forgetting with my family as well.
at the end of these attachments, it's been a great journey. really been thru alot of ups and downs these past 3 years of clinicals; many a times forced me to face my inner fears and face up to criticisms told to me straight in my face. it stripped me to the core of my very being but it's strengthened and moulded me to become a better and stronger persion. i've learnt so much about myself through all these experiences and im rrly grateful to all my clinicians and clinical partners who have thought me so much, and brought me endless joy and laughter everyday. you guys made the journey so much more endearing. thank you for being a part of my learning journey.
CE1: alone at
Gleneagles HospitalCE2a:
Bright Vision Hospital (with
joyce)- well i din rrly noe you then, but learnt alot from you though. and now, im just glad we've grown closer this year. you r a great person, with a unique sense of humour tht never fails to crack all of us up in class.
CE2B:
Changi General Hospital (with
Mei Ping)- never a dull moment with you; your never ending 'supply' of farts esp in the morning. but thank you for helping me thru MS. you r one nut case! but a very special girl indeed.
CE2C:
Tan Tock Seng (with
dudu and trish)- probably one of my best placement was with you girls! gosh! dudu i miss your bright and cheery self every morning, i never fail to draw strength from it esp when im rrly dead tired coming to work. i miss your sunshine!! and tricia! omg...you are just eccentric and i enjoy going crazy with you everyday. you never fail to crack me up on a daily basis. you r the best!
CE3a:
Changi General Hospital (with
Hui Cheung)- i have no comments, and my dear friends, you guys shud noe why yea.
CE3B:
Tan Tock Seng (with
bernice and jocey)- definitely had fun! bernice, i found out abt your unique talent in imitating people. seriously you r damn good! and we have the same birthday! i still cant get over the fact you noe! and jocey, you r always the calm one. the one with great insight. had an interesting last week with you guys where we each saw like 5 patients in the morning, and when it was only 10 plus 11, we were so so tired from rushing around seeing patients and documenting. like when is lunch going to come! HAHA. plus we were also rushing our inservice, with barely enough sleep everyday. but we made it thru! gosh!
CE3C:
Singapore General Hospital (with
Bernice, Huey yen and Hui Chueng)- it was an honour to have the opportunity to work with bernice again. and thru these 5 wks i rrly got to noe huey yen in ways i never imagined we could. it's like for the past 3 years, we hardly rrly interacted and toked, and it only took 5 weeks to bring us tgt and to build such a great friendship tgt. i learnt alot from you girl, and thanks for opening up so much to me. i had alot of fun with you and probably another one of my best attachement was here.
i've rly learnt so much, alot of which i could not have learnt it in school. though im looking forward to heading back to school because im just rrly drained from 3 consecutive clinicals and i need a break, but it's only thru seeing patients tht it rrly strengthened and compounded how much i rrly want to be in this line of work, to be in a position with the privilege to help others. the sense of satisfaction and fulfilment when my patients improve, when they shake my hand, when their family members tell me thank you with such earnesty, it makes everything worth. all the hard work we've been thru these past 3 years, every set back, it is and will be worth it. we study with a purpose, and tht is not to just excel, do well and graduate with a great GPA but more importantly, to allow ourselves to be empowered with knowledge and skills to be able to help our patients.
and it's rrly in line with wad God has commanded us to do. the daily devotions have been about how God wants us to grow in servanthood.
John Wesley was an incredible servant of God. His motto was: "Do all the good you can, by all the means you can, in all the ways you can, in all the places you can, at all the times you can, to all the people you can, as long as you ever can."
i wanna go back to school as well cos i rrly miss all my classmates. being in the lecture room tgt, and in caryn's words " to be able to snack, laugh and chill". but it's not going to be easy this sem, with the load of fyp on our shoulders plus all the specialisation modules. but we'll make it thru i noe cos i have the best classmates ever.
to my dear, i rrly miss you. thank you for being in my life and being a part of me. you have my love always. looking forward to seeing you real soon!
thank you God for everything in my life. for all the love tht you've showered on me. your grace is sufficient and your power is made perfect in my weakness. all glory and honour to you alone. thank you for guiding me thru the down and dark times during my clinicals by sending people into my life to help me along the way. help me to never loose sight of your purpose and will for my life. Amen.
&so much I gotta give it away; 8:40 PM
Title: i will always love you!
Date: Wednesday, October 07, 2009
omg...im struggling to grappling with the fact that you are gg to enlist tmr. it's just too soon, too quick. or maybe i've just been avoiding the tot of it...but alas! it's here, and i cant bear to be away from you for so long!
the past few months & weeks i've been telling myself, wad's so difficult abt it; you'll be away for only a few weeks, but now when faced with reality, it's so so hard to let go of so many things.
everything tht we've shared/ gone through be it during happy or down times, i've cherished them. they are etched deeply in my mind..cos all have actually worked towards bringing us closer together as we learned and understood each other more. accepting all the flaws and idiosyncrasies tht each of us may have. looking back, though sometimes we quarrelled and there seemed no end to it with no solution, but those were good experiences as it moulded & strengthened our love and faith for each other. definitely i would never ever wanna exchange all tht i've experienced with you. they are precious memories tht i'd never trade it for anything in the world.
you've done so much for me these past few months. showered me with so much love tht i'd never tot i'd have the priviledge to experience. thank you for changing so much for me and for being so patient with me. thank you always for reassuring me during my moments of self-doubt and believing in me. thank you for giving me tht sense of security in all your actions. i've given you my heart and im rrly aiming for the long haul. your presence in my life has kept me grounded, and i began to see things in a different light after knowing you; your maturity never ceases to amaze me and im glad i have you to guide and advise me when i nid it the most.
we will survive this okay! it's just an obstacle we nid to overcome. im sure before we knoe it, 2 years will fly by and i'll hear u telling me how much u miss army life haha.
i hope u enjoyed STOMP last night cos i rrly did and im glad we managed to catch it tgt.
by hook or by crook i'll make sure im well enough to go send you tmr. otherwise im gg to be real sad..my dear,let me go okay if im better.
thank you shi min for all tht you've done so tht we may have wad we have today. i love you best friend!!
&so much I gotta give it away; 9:40 PM
Title: in God's hands
Date: Tuesday, September 22, 2009
clinical hasnt been going the way i'd wanted it to. maybe because i have higher expectations for myself. CP is smth i wanna do better in...but it just doesnt seem so for me this time round. i've been trying, but things just dun seem to be going my way. maybe im not trying hard enough. i have only a few days left to impress pradha. i rrly duno how.
i wanna do well. i know i can do it. im gg to have to pray harder for God's favour and to work harder to brush up my knowledge further. it's smth within my grasp, i rrly nid to grab hold of it before it's too late.
boyfriend's enlisting in abt 15 days. going to miss him...but we'll survive this. absence makes the heart grow fonder. thank you for your love.
&so much I gotta give it away; 10:44 PM
Title: BOYFRIEND is COMING HOME.. tomorrow!!!
Date: Saturday, August 29, 2009
and exams ended on Wednesday. CP and MS were so freaking difficult! like seriously! im so prepared to tke supplementary paper alrdy. damn sian. we rrly mugged like crazy but in the end the papers were still so crappy. heartbreaking. why is studying so painful for us?
we kinda finished up our fyp implementation phase on friday; a full one week of it during our study break in june, therafter coming back for 5 saturdays in a row during our clinical 3A to do more testings, and last thurs and friday we wrapped it up. it's been rrly a long drawn process. coming back on saturdays when it's supposed to be our sleeping day..sucked to the MAX! so we were finally able to shift all the equipment from the BodyWatch Gym to our lab. but this marks the end of the first part of our project only. there's still collation of results, analysis, the much dreaded PRESENTATIONS, poster designing etc...it never ends.
monday. attachment begins once again. will be at ttsh doing ICU. another 5 weeks. another round. another cycle. gonna have to survive through it. pass it and not fail. God please help us. good thing boyfriend will not be in army yet...but he'll be in by the time i go for my third and final block of attachments. sighzzzzzz.
best friend: i will be here for you. through everything. through thick and thin. through it all. im just a phone call away.
to joyce: all the best in Hong Kong! we all miss you here! come back in one piece okay...we'll see each other soon. take care of yourself! will definitely have a gathering when you're back! have fun there as well yea! =D
and boyfriend's coming back tmr from Thailand! yay!
missed him man! cant wait for his return! i love you!! :)
God bless us all.
&so much I gotta give it away; 10:32 PM
Title: please God help us.
Date: Thursday, August 20, 2009
it's a race against time to finish studying! 4 more days till CP paper on monday, followed by MS on tue and AP on wed! absolutely insane! but no choice...by hook or by crook we got to make it through.
By Your Grace, everything will be alright.
after exams, there will be a few days to tke a breather, before the next round of Clinicals start on the monday again...ahhh it's just a never-ending cycle.
&so much I gotta give it away; 2:38 PM
Title: Lord, all i need is You.
Date: Monday, August 10, 2009
inching into the last week of clinicals already. the past four weeks just flew by, there were ups and downs definitely...but with God's grace i made it through. week 5 is going to be a trying week...in-service presentation coming up, paeds assignment due soon and exam revisions pending to be done. when this week ends, it's going to be a race against time to finish studying for exams. im going to need a miracle/ an extra brain/ and 48 hrs a day to complete everything!
anw, despite all the stress and struggles, im grateful for the many things in my life; my family, my friends, good clinical educators, God and you. im thankful for everything.
also CONGRATULATIONS mum on being one of the recipients of the National Day Awards this year.
her name's mentioned in today's Home section (B8) under the Ministry of Home affairs. all these years of hardwork, it's finally paid off. it's amazing how God worked and cleared the path for you all this while to allow you to be where you are today. indeed God's great purpose and plan for you. You've been my mother, our friend, role model. i love you MUMMY!! :)
&so much I gotta give it away; 12:05 PM
Title: Living on a Prayer
Date: Friday, July 03, 2009
yes and so we had an extra week of so-called holiday...but it's like friday already and i feel like i havent completed much revision. so much time and energy spent on projects! they're driving me up the wall!! rrly cant find the time to study in peace. i have so much more to cover in like 3 days? before school starts, which signals the start of HELL week.
im starting to worry abt MS and CP practicals...i dun wanna fail any of them! it's just so scary how close they are and i dun feel im ready for any of them.
grandma's in hospital. it's been one week alrdy. i rrly hope she gets better to come home soon..realise i miss her nagging ALOT and someone always asking wad time i'll be back and all. maybe i've taken her for granted for too long and God's trying to tell me smth. past week has been a trying one for my family with my dad being quarantined as well. but we made it thru, and it probably has brot our family closer, esp my mum and grandma..and i believe God has a purpose for everything.
next week will be over in a flash...we'll make it through (i hope).
God help us.
&so much I gotta give it away; 4:28 AM
